Lately, I've been dealing with some pretty strong emotions just boiling beneath the surface, trying to sort them out and figure out how to deal with them. I like to make lists to help me sort through what's going on in my head...
Anger:
- at disrespect and unjust accusations.
- at manipulation of the sick and helpless for selfish motives.
- at the twisting of words just to cause disruption and division.
- at unjust judgement of actions and what we do for fun.
- at being viewed, not as an intelligent individual, but as a puppet who just follows blindly.
- that so much responsibility is expected without any real authority being given.
Sadness:
- that some who were there to help and support are really not.
- that evil is allowed to remain more or less unchecked.
- at misunderstanding.
-at having to be on guard in what is supposed to be a place of safety.
Grateful:
- that I can always rely on and trust my Master to guide, comfort, and protect me in whatever situations He puts me in.
- that I have a friend who really does love me unconditionally and completely has my trust and loyalty.
- that we do have friends who are there for us watching and offering comfort and support.
I'm not sure where all this is going or what conclusions to draw yet... just taking it one day at a time seeking for wisdom, direction, and strength.
4 comments:
I'm right there with you, my dear friend. Angry, sad and grateful...yep, that about sums it up.
:-/
Just being able to make a list of feelings is a great accomplishment. I find it very difficult to even figure out what the heck I am feeling or thinking most days. I hardly know who is friend or foe and what peoples motives are. So be happy that you are as astute as you are...you're going to be a great Master one day padawan! :D
Thanks, J. I've had some serious good training to be sure! :o)
I'm praying for you as you work through all of this. What a difficult season!
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